so weird todae..hmm..donno whye dde feeling came back again ii suddenly felt eso empty inside again..ii donno whye feel dartx ii cann trusth no-one..ii donn realli have someone by me when ii feelin down..ii donn understand whye but ii try so hard to open maself to accept new frwens and try so hard to forget dde past but ii jus so stuck here in no where...

maybe ii will suddenly felt dartx way because ii don feel dartx ii am important animore to this world..now adaes ii feel so much better when ii'm alone at home or in ma room ii feel dartx ii donn niid to worriex about aniting lik this..maybe ii am suffering for some mental illness..if there is a medicine dartx helps one to forget everyting ii will be dde furst to eat it ..lossing ma memorise is much more better den stuck down here..ii donn wann to be lik this it is so torturing!!!!)=

maybe ii will cure maself one dae!!ii realli hate maself for being so PATHETIC*i wann to get over wiid this thing it is jus so stupid!!ii'm realli sick of maself oweas feeling this way!!

so weird todae..hmm..donno whye dde feeling came back again ii suddenly felt eso empty inside again..ii donno whye feel dartx ii cann trusth no-one..ii donn realli have someone by me when ii feelin down..ii donn understand whye but ii try so hard to open maself to accept new frwens and try so hard to forget dde past but ii jus so stuck here in no where...

maybe ii will suddenly felt dartx way because ii don feel dartx ii am important animore to this world..now adaes ii feel so much better when ii'm alone at home or in ma room ii feel dartx ii donn niid to worriex about aniting lik this..maybe ii am suffering for some mental illness..if there is a medicine dartx helps one to forget everyting ii will be dde furst to eat it ..lossing ma memorise is much more better den stuck down here..ii donn wann to be lik this it is so torturing!!!!)=

maybe ii will cure maself one dae!!ii realli hate maself for being so PATHETIC*i wann to get over wiid this thing it is jus so stupid!!ii'm realli sick of maself oweas feeling this way!!

erm..realli gantong worrx..haha zhenling,alyssa and shimin so ganxin wo ..heeheex..
hmm..todae was so darm feng keep disturbing ma dear huiqin hahax ii realli love her so much cann..she iish so sweet todae she chinese cher teaching we dde chinese homework mahx..den got one word dde meaning means beri close ,beri good together den huiqin sae iish lik me and her dde frwenship worrx ii so gandong cann she iish so sweet to me todae..even ii keep disturb her she still so good to me..ii lovehercrazyness man no matter wat she iish still dde best..

after skool went to take bus we wanzi and maisy took one big round kayyx coz reali love dde bus dde aircon iish so darm cooling wiix this kind to weather is lik hell cann dde stupid sun iish so big nor..hmm..but during dde bus trip we were mostly quiet!!!*donno whye ii feel veri confuse erm..not realli sure wat to do..maybe ii will noex wat to do nxt!!!*

ii finally understand..actually ii realli beri love all 2e'05 dde ppl dartx dae ii saw alyssa and she look at me we both look lik we are scare of each other..but ii suddenly felt dartx ii missHER and everyone beri much..zi you wei le ni men ,wo cai hui shangxin,nan gou,kaixin iish you all dartx me love,cry,mad and happiex haiis to tink ii took so long to understand..maybe iish ii too greedy dartx whye ii feel sad when we are not close coz ii reali wann us to be lik dde past..and onli went wiid you all den ii realli laugh out loud from dde hartx!!* ma love for you all so much deeper iish lik we are family lik dartx..although ii understad we can't be lik dde past but ii'm jusx simply happiex now dartx ii saw you all dde face even if iish not happiex dde expression!!ii tink ii will neba be dartx happiex animore lik dde past but ii'm not sadd animore!!*to me all of you all iish not jux a passing face but someone dartx have left foot prints dartx cannot be erase in ma hartx foreva!!!you all are ma foreva PRECIOUS momeries

walau todae darm sadd cann!!!* donno wat kind of result ii'm having iish lik shit man..ii onli jux pass ma stupid math cann!!!* 6/12 so lously lor..onli left one more week den we are having our End of year exam liao..ii still didn't imporve ma math and ma English ii onli got 59 plusplus for ma over all..ii'm so useless lor..realli beri scare ii will have to stay back for another year..but haii hao ii have huiqin here for me can oweas ask her about studi dde coz we are sitting together now..donno from went we start to sit together le..realli happiex dartx we are better now..and sukri english is dde best for dde overall in our kalss..hmm..she keep scare she will fail for her english but ii feel dart her studies have improve alot hope she will get over it and don stress her-self too much..jiayou sukri and huiqin ii love you guys!!!*

Todae feel so sick and tired of all dde things happening around me..todae should have went out to pei shimin dde miss her so much cann..but ii did'nt..don wan to tok about all dde stupid reasons la..

ii'm so sorriex ma dear its raining big outside now PLS takeccare kayyx...don fall sick or ii will feel beri guilty dde wo neba pei ni todae..

had a big fight wiid ma stupiid father ytd..ii reali
cannot stand him animore ii fold so mani cloths for him liao still not happiex scold me sae ii not willing to fold somemore make a mess and tell me to fold again..so ii keep quiet and fold den he keep nagnagnag make untill ii cry..

spoil ma mood sia haiis ...ma father iish such a mood spoiler!*

haiis ..todae at recess saw zhenling and vanessa hmm tok to wanzi den when ii turn around ii saw them walk pass me sia din even get a chance to sae hello hais ta men don care me le )': so fan sia..reali sadd man ii'm fadin awae le..missHER so much donno whye of all ii hold on to this frwenship so close to ma hartx man..den whole dae so no mood sia..after skool saw dear gladys at hartxland sia she ask me wo hai hao mahx now ii so gandong man so happiex man she so care about me sweet rite..?den after dartx actually wannted to go home dde but aiya scare wait ii go home ani how tink again so went to lsbc raining sia me and wanzi at furst don wanna be in dde rain dde but maisy start to play water sia den playfull wanzi go play sia den wo bu yao dde but maisy wetwet den she forget she lay at me back den ma behind wet sia den aiya don care la go play water le..den so fun mood better le lor THANKZ maisy make ma back wet hahas..will not forget todae dde..hope ma darling wanzi and maisy cann stay happiex forevax!!!*:D

argh..!!!!!!Todae feeling so terrible ma two hands are so painful and ma darm sickness still not okiex yet ..so sickerning mans!~haiis

todae moning ii jus wake up jiu saw dde fone beside ma bed ii pick up iish cindy & yimei..they ask me wanna go see moive or not..feeling beri sick but ii wanna see the movie "click" so ii went to miit them lor ..erm..beginning though wow!!! they so good still rmb to kall me out den ii reach there den found out iish they ask zhenling den zhenling suddenly cannot come so they den kall me dde ..haiis but neba mind la ii don care so much le aniway ii got to see dde movie!!~ii'm beri happiex wiid dartx and dartx's enough for me le..coz ii don hope or wish aniting from 2e'05 dde ppl le ..at least they rmb to kall me =D ..
dde movie "click" was so darm nice lor neba regret gg out even ma hands was beri painful beri touching sia dde movie see liao will treasure everyone around you much more den you did before kayyx!!!

Thankz!~ YIMEI andd CINDY todae was so darm fun ..LOVEyouGUYS!!!*

wahaha..todae so blur donno whye ii becoming more andd more blur liao..todae ii went out early coz wanna miit wanzi at lsbc mahx ..normaly bus 27 beri long dde but donno why ii jus reach bus-stop bus 27 jiu come liao den ii drop at bus 87 dde bus-stop ii trun around bus 87 oso come liao iin dde end ii reach dde place half & hours early make wanzi walk all dde way to lsbc come find me so paisehx sorriex arhx wanzi ..we make alot of rounds here and there den we finally went to east coast ..once we reach there jiu go borrow bicycle den we ride so far sia den too tired liao cannot make it sia ..so went to rest liao ..den we start to tokk alot of rubbish liao ..den after beri long benjamin call ..den we lazy to go back so we ask them to come find us..we wait so long sia untill dde wave so big ma whole back wet wet sia..luckly wanzi only kena alittle bit..den we act clever ask them izzit they lost liao some ask them to wait there we go find them ..dde ii confirm wiid wanzi lots of tyme's we gg dde correct place or not ..beginning she sae think so den ii confirm wiid her again she sae she sae yes yes is dde correct place but we wait so long liao still haven see them lehx ..den wanzi start to ask wat iish jetty den ii start to blur liao den she laugh lik siao sia ..wahahaha make me ren bu zhu oso laugh ..den we decided to miit them at Mac ..furst we return bicycle coz our tyme up liao den ii buy one bottle of peach tea ..we walk till mac they haven reach yet den ii buy mid lemon tea sia ..drink so much ii tink ii will be fatter liao..wahas..after dartx we wait for they to come den we go take bus go home den went we walkin to bus-stop cannot balance ourself at all ..we lik drunk sia..den reach bus-stop ii suddenly rmb jetty is dde ppl fishing dde place den ii confirm wiid wanzi she sae yes..hahas stupid rite go one big round..den we cannot stop laughing at dde bus-stop sia ..cannot control ourself liao..den in bus still laughin sia den weijie donno sae wat den wanzi stop laughing liao..den ii went home liao so tired cann! but todae was so fun and blur ..

ytd wake up so sick sia keep wanna vomit sia ..but oral nehhx so ii went to skool actually iish wanna miit dear maisy & wanzi dde but den ii neba saw them so ii went oral furst ii oral half way wanzi kall me sae they at third floor so after ii oral finish ii went to find them ..maisy so stress untill wanna give up alreadi but wanzi still playin she took a pic of her funni face and maisy behind very stress ..WAHAHAHA so darm funni man ..but lucky maisy got finish her oral ..
after they all finish their oral we went to LS to find bing pong piang ..den we went to eat sia ii was so darm hungry ..actually we wanna to go to east coast to ride bicycle dde but dde weather so hot cann! so we decided to take the bus one big round in dde bus wanzi and bing pong piang keep playin so funni man..we drop at dde back gate there ii saw vanessa ii chat wiid her for awhile ..den our bus came so we board dde bus we went to compass hahas we eat again ..ii think ii gg to be fatter le ..wahas
but because me and wanzi beri tired so we went off furst ..we took bus 80 to wanzi hse den wanzi pei me to bus 62 dde bus-stop to wait for bus so sweet rite..love her man!we waited for half an hours cann but so funni we keep tokkin about all dde stupid things we had done ..hais den ii went home den ii so sick sia ii whole dae keep wanna vomit le somemore at nite ii got flu and sore throat so xinku man!Den todae at 1++ saw maisy msg ii tell her ii sick den she so worriex maisy is so sweet rite!!ii so gandong man maisy so care about me ..love her to dde core cann!

Todae actully wanted to go out wiid ma mum dde but hais not feeling well so cannot make it ..so neba get to go out but its okiex will me la ,ii'm oreadi used to it le last year oweas plan den in dde end neba went out..aiya don want to tok about it animore le ..hais ii wish ii can start all over again den ii will studi hard ..if ii can go back to sec one ii for sure will not go around making frwens which coz me so must trouble & will studi everydae so dartx ii no niid to spent one more year in yuying ..but if lik dart jiu cannot get to noex all dde 2E'05 de ppl & ma darling wanzi , maisy and kenling le so ii neba regret gg to 3H klass !!~loveYA ma dearie's..

hais althought not close to all dde 2E'05 dde girls le but donno whye missTHEM so much ..everytyme see them donno whye feel dartx they find it beri hard to tok to me ..is it dartx "xinku"? ii don't understand whye ..but each tyme ii see them lik this it makes me die alittle more inside but neba mind la ii believe lik this ii will eventully be death inside andd ii will not feel dde saddness animore went ii see them again ..maybe ii think too much le but it really killes me to be lik this ..maybe ii should not care so much..

But wanzi ,maisy ,kengling ,zicheng ,eunice ,huiqin makes me feel dartx someone cares athought ii neba tell them aniting about this but ii cann realli feel dartx they care about me..

ii realli wan to thankz them ii love you guys so much..without you all dde frwenship maybe ii cannot carry on..